Loving Mikayla Grace

I think I heard this about a million times Saturday. My mom just bought a new house and had a house warming party. Of course I was there. I think everyone there that knew me said this too me. Even my sister in-law came up to me and said, "Laura, you look like you've lost weight. Your jeans look really baggy on you." I replied with, "Yeah, I have lost some weight. I've almost lost 20 lbs. now." I was wearing my new jeans that I bought probably a month ago. They are too big already. I'm happy about that but a little irritated at the same time. I hate spending money on something I can only wear for a month. Oh well. So, I felt really good yesterday with everyone saying how good I look. Someone asked me if I "feel" the weight loss. I had to tell her that no I can't "feel" it yet. I mean I feel it in my clothes, but when I look at myself in the mirror I still look like the same 'ol fat me. I know I know give it time.

So, I'm truly considering asking my Dr. for some medication. Don't know that she'll give it to me since I know the source of what is depressing me. Unfortunately I can't just quit my job. I mean it's pretty bad when it's affecting everything in my life. Today the hubby and I had a talk about our marriage. Neither of us are happy right now. I even told him that I've questioned myself on whether I made a mistake getting married, if I married the right person. Now don't get me wrong, I love my husband with all my heart. BUT, we're both going through a lot of stress right now that is affecting every aspect of our lives. I HATE my job and he's going to school full time in addition to working full time. We never see each other and when we do he's doing homework. A couple posts ago I mentioned that we're not taking precautions to prevent a pregnancy, but I guess you have to have sex in order for a pregnancy to occur (TMI, I know, but it's true.) I feel so much better now that we've talked because I was afraid that he felt that everything was okay. I know I know communication is KEY. Why is being a grown up so hard?

Anyway, I'm not looking forward to WI this week. I really don't think it will be good. I know I've done a lot of stress eating. I'm going to drink a TON of water this week and get out and walk with the dog. Wish me luck!