One Day At A Time

UGH!! I would have never guessed that I would have to go through this game. I grew up always thinking that when I was ready to have children it would happen. The DH and I just visited a a reproductive endocrinologist. After the appointment I felt good. I am also reading a book called A Few Good Eggs. It's pretty good. It suggested researching things for yourself and informing yourself. So, today I hopped on FertileThoughts.com and checked out the message boards. The first post I looked at was titled "Anyone Around You Pregnant?" I saw that and immediately clicked on it. If my friends weren't pregnant they were giving birth in the last year, and now another one is pregnant. I was so happy to hear that I am not the only one who is upset by this happening in my life. I am jealous and angry! I know now that those are normal feelings and it's okay to feel that way. Of course I am happy for all my friends who have successfully had children and the one who is pregnant, but it's very hard dealing with my own emotions. I find myself withdrawing from my friends just to avoid hearing all about it. This game is an evil evil game, but when I finally have my own children it will all be worth it because I will love them that much more! I will not give up!